“Become so wrapped up in something that you forget to be afraid.” -Lady Bird Johnson
Now that we’ve been matched, you would think some of the anxiety would disappear, right? Not the case… it’s as if a new anxiety starts to bubble up. The adoption journey can break you down if you let it… once you move on to the next stage, fresh doubts can begin to overwhelm you. It’s beauty, love, and fear, all wrapped up in hope. There’s so much unknown, hearts undeniably invested, strangers perhaps becoming friends (or already like family, to us) and trusting and truly caring for one another. It has been amazing and better than I ever thought it would be or could be. It’s SO good. And that scares me! But I’m learning to focus on the good, lean on Him, and not let the other thoughts consume me. Throughout it all, we really just have to fall into our faith, trust and believe. We met with Mama Z yesterday (2nd meeting we’ve had) and every time is more special than the last. She is incredible. She radiates grace and joy. She is everything and more. She’s pure love and I hope Hazel is exactly like her.
I bought this adorable Solly Baby wrap (sollybaby.com) designed by Baby Boy Bakery (babyboybakery.com) before we were matched or even knew about Z. Now I picture Hazel in it. I imagine myself wrapped in a love I’ve never known and Hazel being wrapped in the love of, not just 2, but 3 families. And countless more. And it all boils down to this… one can never be wrapped up in too much love. 💕
Other amazing things we learned about Hazel yesterday:
1) She loves ham sandwiches
2) She dances to Shakira!
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀So grateful to Mama Z for sharing these wonderful things with us, inviting us to the hospital tour we did yesterday, and gifting us with a box full of ultrasound photos! My heart feels so much for this beautiful person! 💗
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